Stayin Alive
I’m back in Toronto for a brief stint. And as usual I’m working. Even though I thought that this semester would be much easier than last, due to the fact that I only have to be on campus two days of the week, it seems, again, that I was very wrong. I can already feel January slipping through my hands like so many grains of sand. Ah well. Back to the old story of trying to stay afloat. One day I will give up on my dreams of mastery and content myself with survival. Ambition is so hard to kill though…
I’m still contemplating this PhD thing too. Why should I worry myself over it now? I don’t know. I tend to fixate on the next thing. I do know that next year this time I will be thoroughly consumed with the question as it will be time for applications and what not. It all boils down to what I want. How do I want the narrative of my life to unfold? I was talking this over with a friend not so long ago. What is the most important thing for me? Still trying to figure that out…