Rejection
Well. U of T doesn’t want me. 2 more to go before I know what my fate is for next academic year. Are they telling me that I need an actual History BA? Maybe. Although my advisors here tell me its not entirely necessary… It’s too bad I got so turned off of studying English. I just can’t do it anymore. Way too much bullshit. Not like there is a lot less in History, but at least its not so obvious…
I’m thinking now about my future. And trying hard not to work myself into a depression while doing it. But what do I do if I don’t make it in? I must admit that I am sick of school. It’s been 6 years now. That’s a fuckin long time man. I wouldn’t mind a year off. Where do I go from here? What do I really want to do? Guess I’ll be feeling my way out of this hole.
I’m still sick. My body has been weakened substantially by the virus. I don’t want to over exert myself and then have a relapse. That would be a disaster. I’m just taking it easy a bit, and sleeping when my body tells me to. Which is often. Still didn’t finish that essay that was due yesterday. You know what? I don’t care anymore. I do. But. I don’t. Will I remember this essay next year this time? I really doubt it. I’ll get to it when I’m able.
March 17th, 2007 at 3:29 am
I know pretty much where you’re coming from, especially with school and that lack of motivation. I struggled to get my essay written for tonight. I sent it with 2 minutes to spare.
If you need someone to talk to in real life, I’m around. Only a quick phone call away.
I wish I could give you some sort of advice, but I’m sort of in the same place. I just keep asking myself questions, but I don’t think I’m getting anywhere either…
I still have my fingers crossed for your other two options though.
March 18th, 2007 at 1:13 am
Thanks for the encouragement.
Mwah!
March 18th, 2007 at 1:03 pm
aww! hugs… damn uoft. I hear it’s really hard to get in for MAs, though.
March 18th, 2007 at 2:48 pm
aww i cant believe you didnt get in! hopefully we are still on for today, you totally need some chill time.
March 19th, 2007 at 8:19 pm
Sorry about U of T, but I really think it might have more to do with your relatively few history courses than anything else. I.E. don’t take it personally. Also, I’m sure you’ll get in somewhere else. In any case, I think a movie night is indicated.
March 19th, 2007 at 8:28 pm
I completely agree with you Priya. Troubling to imagine me in undergrad for another year. (hence the depression) I’m not mad at U of T. or my lot. or my life. Although the last two tend to suck from time to time.
You know I have to be more dramatic here. I have an audience!! Hah! *turns and with a flair exits stage left* Yes. Movie night. 