Insomnia
Hello people,
Its like 2 in the morning and I can’t sleep. What should I do? Get some warm milk, take an anti-depressant or should I blog the hell out of my condition? … I think I’ll blog 
Canada’s a getting cold. By next week me thinks the summer will be a distant memory. At least for this tropical boy anyway…
Got my first grade back today for english lit. 64 out of 100. A f*ckin C! Can you believe it! I honestly believe that that is the lowest grade I have ever recieved in my entire college career. To paraphrase the immortal words of Dorothy, you ain’t in Kansas no moe. And this is so true.
There is an amazing amount of reading to do, and being the ever anal-retentive nerd that I am, I read books IN ADDITION to what is on the syllabus. Will I ever learn. If the average university student was studied by an anthropologist I’m sure they would come to the conclusion that we come to this place to read and to learn the language of academia. That and learn to write it. Any who doubt that it is it’s own peculiar little subset of humanity shouldn’t. But University too serves its purpose in the system, and as such is not really the place to go to become ‘free’. Which I believe is my main aim. So why am I here?
I want to say to develop my talents and abilities, but then I would be in the creative writing program wouldn’t I, if that were the case. That or the Theatre program. But I’m not, I’m studying English literature. Why? I love reading new books and the insights that we get from them is pretty good. Its much better than studying history, because at least we KNOW that the books we are reading are fiction. I think that I’m studying English lit, so I can know what is possible, to see what others have done with words and how I can emulate them and maybe even become them one day. In short.. I’m not entirely sure anymore…
Anywayz, feeling a little drowsy… I guess blogging does help the sleepiness come…
October 16th, 2004 at 2:14 am
Oh Ward, your first mark ever in university.
Firsts are always worsts, as the rhyme goes. But hey, leave room to grow! Your mark will blossom, and transform into such a big butterfly, that perhaps the school wont be able to retain!
But .. seriously, if you think youre in the wrong program, I say change it quick. Well, you can’t really change it quick ‘coz you gotta wait till the end of the term, but … at least you can ask around, set your eye onto the next program, and transfer some courses out, and put new courses in from the new program for winter term. Then, maybe you can be more motivated and work better towards marks!
October 16th, 2004 at 1:40 pm
If “firsts are always worsts” and worth only 10% of the final grade, then with “room to grow” you are already growing towards B’s and A’s for the remaining 90%.